Overview: Amanda E.K. is a writer and filmmaker, the editor-in-chief and publisher of Suspect Press, a memoirist about purity culture and an exvangelical.
In this conversation, Amanda talks about her fundamentalist evangelical upbringing, purity culture, rapture anxiety and religious trauma syndrome. We also talk about when she started to question the faith, and about eventually coming into her own truths as an atheist and a self-described “queer polyamorous nonbinary womxn” in a loving heterosexual marriage. Among other things, like Allen Ginsberg’s “Howl” and Amanda’s forthcoming memoir. These thing and more in this episode of the Humanitou Podcast.
EP 105 SHOW NOTES, LINKS & TRANSCRIPT*
Connect with Amanda E.K.
Amanda E.K. on Instagram: @amanda.ek.writer
Glass Cactus Productions on Instagram: @glasscactus_prods
References & Links
Synopsis of “Purity Culture,” a forthcoming memoir by Amanda E.K.
Suspect Press: suspectpress.com
Video: “My Teenage Limits When With A Guy”
Connect with Adam Williams / Humanitou:
Humanitou on Instagram: @humanitou
Provided by: Amanda E.K.
“Tupac Lives” by John Bartmann | freemusicarchive.org
*Full transcript coming soon.
Welcome to Humanitou. I’m Adam Williams, creator and host of this podcast series about humanness and creativity.
Today, I’m talking with Amanda E.K., writer and editor, publisher and filmmaker, memoirist about purity culture and exvangelical.
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Now, back to the amazing conversation at hand with Amanda E.K.
Amanda grew up as an only child in a fundamentalist evangelical family. She turned to the pages of her diaries, starting at age 7, in which she documented her thoughts and questions that she feared were too sinful to say out loud.
As a pre-teen, she wrote a lot about her boy-crazy disposition … even when attending purity retreats, weekends designed to repress and redirect the natural urges of such affectionate ideas.
In fact, as a side note: You can go to her YouTube channel (linked in the show notes on the Humanitou website), where she’s published short videos of her reading some of those youthful diary entries. She reads, for example, the outline she wrote at 15 years old to set her physical limitations when hanging out with a boy.
In this conversation, we talk about Amanda’s first purity retreat experience, at 12 years old. And she tells of the “rapture anxiety” that she felt at being away from home — and the recurring nightmares rooted in that anxiety that she still has.
We talk about how it was at a religious Christian college, surrounded by fellow 18-year-olds who were “on fire for Jesus,” that she started seeing cracks in the evangelical truths that she’d been given.
We also talk a lot about Amanda’s personal journey, peeling back the layers of religious trauma syndrome, and uncovering her own sense of truth and identity that are very much not in line with the fundamentals of evangelicalism.
Now … I’ve said all this, and haven’t even talked about Amanda’s path out of small-town Iowa to Denver, Colorado, or about how she came to be the owner and editor-in-chief of the highly regarded literary and art publication there, Suspect Press. Or a number of other things. But we will. Now.
Here it is, my conversation with Amanda E.K.